distraction. this whole damn thing that GLOWS at my all day. the thoughts flow on the balcony. but here, it's like gzzzzztthudd *fuck*!@

maybe I'm just looking for excuses not to materialize these thoughts.
maybe i know that this is the world wide fucking web and anyone can stumble across this shit. but not you. nope. cuz you're not looking for me. infact, I'd have to say you're looking PAST me. beyond. I'm a freakin obstacle. weeeeee. nuisance. that's me.
fuck damn. why do you have to have your head up your ass like this? and why do I have to be so damn stubborn? it's all just a bad brew. but fuck. it was a sweet elixir for a bit there, wasn't it? yeah...

I'm going to go back to electroglow distraction again. that's enough of that shmap. pansy. fuck......